imthenextphotoop's Journals on Buzznet http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Lost And Useless ( No More Bruises )]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/378921/lost-useless-more-bruises/ Im glad no one * minus a few individuals * likes me on here. I would love compliments but Im not the internet hard core-er. I don't have talent, and I don't care how many 'friends' i have on here.
And this is so unsafe! I feel is extremely unsafe but its still fun, so thats why i post like 5 pictures of myself up, because tis dangerous!!! I don't care how many ways you word it. It's still unsafe. There are always creeps, always fakes that get under your skin, always people you insult you. The internet, the buzznet, the myspace are like mini earths but worse. I hate these but they are addiciting, I like to rant here. Because On the computer, these digitally typed words Im typing right now are words that I would never say in real life. Im a super shy person and will only say hi to you if you say hi first. So these bold words wouldn't be from me. Everyone I think changed on here. On the internet. On the DANGER ZONE ( haha )
The internet is also a place were attention freaks can get attention. They can make up any seneroy for life and play it. They can say any drastic thing and make people feel bad for them. They can say they know that celebraty you love, just to get you to talk to them. They can say some fake, favricated lie to get your attention. They can say how depressed the 'really' are but they aren't. They can brag about their slit wrist. Which they really aren't. They just want attention from anyone and want it anyway.
Personaly, I'm tired of the internet, I'm only on it to talk to me chaps and because I'm scared to go outside ( DO NOT ASK ) But I'm tired of all the fakes, posers, attention freaks, liars, losers with no respect, and all the bad things on here. The internet is more dangerous than life itself.
On these sights only the great are noticed. And people like me just aren't one of them!!

Peace|Love|Harmony
( Warning: Telephone May Explode Unexpextadly! Talk At Your Own Risk )
-Kiana-


]]> fakes internetsucks posers rant Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-06-10T22:03:00Z <![CDATA[I'm The New Stereo Type...Bite Me]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/161387/im-new-stereo-typebite/ I would love to be a famous person's girlfriend to prove to the world, I don't have to be gorgeous, have a perfect body, have a perfect complection and smile, and only weigh 120 pounds to be loved by the perfectly famous
People say don't compare yourself to others, but how can you not, when we look up to models and girlfriends of the guys in our favaourite bands and they are so skinny, so beauitful, so perfect and not begin to hate ourselves?
For ocne I would love to see an not so perfect girlfriend hanging on the 'heart throbs' arm. It would be uplifting. It would be a light at the end of the tunnel saying " Personality DOES mean something " But with the world today you would never guess. I find it depressing but try not to let it get to much into my head, more than it already has.
The " Im fat, I need to lose weight so I can get with someone like HIM " is already in my head. And I want it to go away, but its hard, so hard, I cry weighing myself wishing to be skinny, and I see in the mirror someone who isnt the status-qou.
Not so comforting thoughts ring through-out my head, but I know I need to get over them, people give compliments, but you never know if they are true. People tell you the lies you are telling your selves ARE actually lies, but how do you believe them? It's so hard to live when you think the world is lieing.
I walk down the halls of my school. And notice something. The skinniest, prettiest, and fakest girl gets all the guys. Her bubbly laugh, her double 00 pants, her bleach blonde hair. Compares to me as an annoying giggle, size 5 pants, a dark brown haired girl who wishes to be her.  Sighing I wish to walk on, but int he back of my mind I still see her, and wonder why Im not her.
But girls shouldnt compare themselves to anyone, we are all our own person, and are built differntly, but it still doesnt get through our heads because to us teenaged girls are heads are filled with weird logics like:
I need to weigh 80 pounds to get a guy
Everyone is leing to be with compliments
I need to look like her to be considerd beautiful
Personality means nothing, only your face and chest counts

Those are lies! They mean nothing excpet in Barbie's world. Because Barbie IS teh essence of perfect and models have compared and begun to be her, and the avergage teen girl tries to compare and be the model. And it just doesnt work, and becomes a degradding memory.

Be yourself
Read yourself like a open book
And accept yourself inside and out
Compliment the pimples on your forhead
Smile when you have a bad hair day
Laugh off your embarressing moments
And again
Be your self and never..never compare yourself to anyone but you!


-Kiana-
My minds on the go like a speeding car

]]> barbie fakes girlfriends girls panic!atthedisco stearoe types thoughts Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-04-22T20:58:00Z <![CDATA[NO WAI]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/160112/no-wai/ A couple of days ago
And saw that Rockapella
( A band that uses no instumetns to make music, the did the theme song for Where In The World Is Carmen Sandeagio )
Re-did Semi-Charmed Kind Of Life
Of course it's not as good as TEB but it is amazing
I love that song, and love palying it on guitar
That just made my day!


-Kiana-
And I'd make you smile like a drug for you!
]]> music rockapella thirdeyeblind Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-04-20T21:46:21Z <![CDATA[This Journal Is No The One I Message You All About..]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/155077/journal-one-message-all-about/ Hi KELLY!








................i......................................likepancakes











tee hee



Here's part of your convo..it made me giggle

Me: AAAH AM I DIEING
Kelly: are you * pokes you *
Me: Ouch I don't think so



hahaha


-Kiana-
imtehpixeioffuturesex/lovesounds lol
]]> friends Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-04-12T22:53:13Z <![CDATA[I Feel Like Freakin' Out]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/155057/feel-like-freakin-out/
That just struck me, of course , about my dad. Meh.I don't know, I'm really just rambling Im saying whats on my mine and not caring who agrees, disagrees or feels offenede
Everyone rolls someway, everyone is allowed to be themselves, even in secracy, Everyone is allowed to laugh as loud as they want to a joke, Everyone is allowed to smile as much as they want and shouldnt be stared at for jsut being happy in a melloncholly world

Today I was thinking how I use to worry of who all my favourite bands were dating, but realized why do I care? Why do I want to approve of their apperance? Apperance means nothing except eye-candy, Apperance means nothing except gets some girls sex and boys, Apperance is not who you are in the inside, so why judge. Your job doesnt scream out who you are, your clothes may say a secret about you, but don't tell your true story. Why judge the girl hanging on their arms for what they dress like? For what they look like? I realized too, that I should care about who I am with, who I am surronding myself with, who I am being influences by, instead of alanizing who everyone from Fall Out Boy, Or Panic!, Or Any other  'boy band' is with. Instead of actaully thinking ,on those lonley bus rides ,that they deserve someone better. Better than someon I don't know, What if that person IS better, because they could very well be better than any person you ever met, but when I looked into my aglow computer screeen all I saw was a pretty face and herd disaproving, envy filled thoughts. No one will admit jealously, no one, but I just did.

 I can't see nothing, nothing round here - Counting Crows

That hit me too, I can't see nothing, Like I can't see the truth behind the music I hear in my head phones, like I cant see the meaning behind the lyrics I cried too, on late december nights, like I can't see thedifferance between life and death, ( but that was then ). I can't see nothing..round here, it seems to say, I cant see anything ( i am blind ) , round here ( in this dark room ). It just really hits me, It has so much meaning, meaningS, that come from every direction, Every mind has  a differnt thought process, so then, thinks differently, and sees songs, lyrics, everything differnty, so this is what those tiny, almot insignifigent words me to me, but across the ocean those tiny words, could mean somethign completelt differnent. I hate how people judge others on their opinion, like if one gilr finds this song so meaningfuly because it reminds her of her parents divorce but the song is actually about an alcholic father, and someone slams her about it, telling her thats not the meaning, thats not right. Thats like telling the girl how to think, how to run her mind, no one should be able to tell you how to think, how to move, how to function, how to live your life

-Kiana-
Sorry For Wasting Your Time

]]> thoughts Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-04-12T21:54:57Z <![CDATA[Can I be " So Scene"]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/145515/scene/ I know what your thinking?
She takes pictures? No wai, but yes i sadly do
I will be posting the  " I AM SO SCENE " thing tomorrow if possible/
But It would be an amazing opporunitie for me if I could be runner up
Im aiming for runner up because my good friend pipsykins is running for it, and I really want her to win

So if you could buzz for me, I would be so happy..pish I will be happy for 10 buzzes :D ha


Thanks doll faces
]]> contests imsoscene photography pictures Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-03-29T20:41:32Z <![CDATA[I Seem To Love Ackwardly, With Intelligence On The Side]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/138594/seem-love-ackwardly-intelligence-side/ ( title may change )

Verse:
On my last limb
On the tree of hope, faith and all of the above
He sure lef me on this far
" Jump Jump Jump "
I wont break a bruise
Or cry a tear

Pre-Chorus:
Nets filled with lost emotion
What a tragetiy I got caught up in
Head over heels
And those books with big words
Don't make any more sense
Then what youe saying

Chorus:
I sigh , I cheer myself on
Confidence boosters can't go wrong
But it did
And blew up beautiflly
I screamed, I never let go
Cut checkerboared my fingers
And didn't fail to linger
Towards sharp misery
And I can't see you
So I memorize you
So I can go on

Bridge:
He left the IV in the hands
Of inexperienced little ones
But you expect me to go on
Pushed me further forward with a gust of wind striaght out of your lungs
I can't keep my balance, not now
He left the IV in the hands of me
Expecting me to know what to do with this
And I don't know at all
When I smile you frown
I know when to feel
And you know when to say its forever real
I cover my ears
Your vioce keeps ringing
He left the IV
Inside of me
 ( Ooo Ooo Ooo Ooo )

Verse:
When my heart falls first
Within the lines of destiny
" Jump Jump Jump Fall "
Through the adrenilin, through the regret
I took twenty seven stiches to the lip
Bodybags dragged around
Under and below the depths of the deck
I took it, and believed it

Bridge:
Jump and jump and jump and jump
I walk along without a hand to hold
Jump and jump and jump and jump
I sing to myself without a tune to keep
Jump and jump and jump higher now
I breathe through the trees without a vivid glance
Jump and jump and jump HIGHER
He walked along with a hand to hold
Jump and jump and jump and jump
He turned and smile right through me
Jump and jump and jump it's all I have left to do
So go ahead and...( gobacktobegining of bridge)


Should that last bridge be the chours>
Im just wondering? I really like this song its really happy even though its about how my crush doesnt like me and how he led me on to like him
Thank you to whereisyourposture for being so ncie and saying my last song touched you
Thats all I ever wanted to do thank you thank you thank you
As you can see Camisado really inspires me for everything

-Kiana-



]]> camisado love lyrics songs Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-03-19T21:30:47Z <![CDATA[Dusted Off Porslien With An In-explainable Beauty (aka song)]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/137890/dusted-off-porslien-explainable-beauty/ Chorus:
He let go
Darkness engulfed by light
Pathes I once walked now gone
Answers nonexistent but I still ask the question
He let go
Of not only me but everyone in plain sight
No innocence in his bones of profainity
Cliff's of disaster stuck in the sides
And out came it all when it wasn't suppose to
Numb lips run with no reason at all
He let go
Of me and you
We are not entangled
He did not show
His face to the world
Because this is how it was ment to be

Verse:
Sunshine tears
Filled with sorrow
I don't mean to
But I do
Cut myself off when it's really important
I confess
That it will never work
Fear will not release me

Bridge:
Sushine tears can't save me now
Filled with sorrow filled smiles
He will loose me and will not know it
Lazy day hearts bring me down


Hey guys...well I wrote another one about my bio father...Im sorry but he gets into my mind
why do I care?
why should I care?
But..he is my blood
My REAL father
So I must love him like one
Even though it hurts
So this song is for all the farther that aren't there for their children
And all the fathers that wish they were better at what they do
And wish to turn around their mistakes
Even when its too late
its to all of those kids
Who have suffered
Because of it


-Camisado makes me cry-


]]> dads lyrics songs Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-03-18T20:17:29Z <![CDATA[Hey all come come. its all the fakes on MYSPACE what a bunch of idiots.....grrrrr]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/137048/hey-all-come-come-all/
Did you know Brendon was married? ME NIETHER..Well.. and he has 2 kids..but on his 'wifes' thing it says 1 kid with different names? hmm

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=82599783

Brendons Wife?

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=137281950

Spencer is married also..wow a conspiracy

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=107890963

Spencers wife...*rolls eyes*

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=137201904

Thats the '16' year old Jac..married to Peter?

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=137032360

18 year old Jac? Married/Engaged To Pete..pish posh ( both are set to private )

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=153026492

Pete...oh yes..married to Jac?

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=136805486

Ryan is married to a suicide girl? They are all married to suicide girls?

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=137270928

Ryan's Wife?


Ok seriosuly..this is so retarded..they pretend to be married to eachother? They are posers.
1) Panic doesn't have a myspace besides the one for the music
2) Well...I dont have a 2 so..meh

Ok girlies..when you look at these and go OMG  another Ryan/Brendon/Spencer/Jac/Pete/Audrey...the ones that say RP they go on myspace to role play..and pretend to be someone else? So basically they pretned to be someone like Ryan..and have internet sex with a poser Jac...how sad..do these people have no lives? There is one of a gay Ryan and Brendon couple..there is like 4 of them....gosh correct me if Im wrong about any of this please

-Posers..will all go somewhere baaaad :D

]]> panic!atthedisco p!atd fob fall out boy peter wentz jacvanek pos Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-03-17T17:01:28Z <![CDATA[Funnie Things My Freinds Say]]> http://imthenextphotoop.buzznet.com/user/journal/137008/funnie-things-freinds-say/
Midgettes?!? I thought this was galaxy land! -  Shay (LMFAO)

The cobras pleasure the guests - Linsay

SPIKE - Me
OOOOOOH! - Linsay
You sounded like Chewbacka - Me

I'm proud to be a whore - May

Kiana, I think I need some air sounds - Linsay

Linsays story about her and *someone* grinding from a car roof to teh school...in great detail.. the real conversation...He said goodmorning..( that story lasted 30 minutes )

SHAMOO! - Linasy ( flops onto bed all wrapped up in a blanket )

If you haven't noticed you * does grinding motion * alot - Shay

What out  Shay, she's on the prowl - Me
I'm Jamie A. - Linsay * does weird thing *
EW! Get away from me - Shay

Don't video tape me ok? - Linsay
Ok - Me * holds up camera and video tapes *

Bloody Tampon!! - Amanda

Im riding a skateboard in the store - May
They are going to kick you out - Me
They'll never catch me! - May * rolls away *

Oh macaroni I forgot my pants - Mr W ( his firemen pants..yea dont think dirty )
Yea cuz I took them off - Linsay
And thats not the only thing coming off - Linsay
And thats not the only thing you'll be loosing - Me

* someone throws an orange at us *
Don't throw food at us! We're anorexic - Me
Do we look like the food bank? - Linsay

It looks like something from Playboy mansion..it just says Bring it on..I got it all - Shay

There is my hot Uncle Paul! - Linsay

My Uncle is coming out - Me
Oh, I'd hit on that - Shay
EW THATS MY UNCLE - Me

I'm a vampire - T
Ok..- Me
*hiss* - T

Etc....


Haha seriosuly I laughed my buttocky off wha..my friends.stupid arent they!!

Extra funnie thing :

What am I suppose to do? Honey I love you? What is this ! What is this! - Brendon Urie

HAHA!

ooo..sorry :D






]]> friends funnie stuff ha ha ha brendonurieonequote Buzznet imthenextphotoop 2007-03-17T16:01:00Z